Life is Lovely

Here is my honesty slipping out, so bare with me those of you that actually take time to read this.
I am heading into a difficult time in my life. Life has held a lot of uncertainty, but my constant buddy through life's challenges is no longer a part of that anymore. My heart is broken, hopeful, excited for what God has for me, and is just trying find clarity in the messiness of relationships. I know God gave us the Bible to reveal himself to us, but I also see how he gave it to us to figure out how to deal with one another.
I know life is not the movies, but I wish it was. The solution or response always seems so clear as a bystander, but when its real life and you factor in your own insecurities, flaws, and expectations; things can get complicated. In this whirlwind of messiness, I have God to be my focus to deliver me into into his purposes and eventually, things will work out the way they are suppose to. It sounds so easy, right? So far, I have God to be a faithful friend through my doubts and sadness and I hope to refine this sweet relationship with my God.
Life has brought me many challenges and dissapointments that I soldiered on through with my loving family being the most constant supprt for me.I am hopeful in this latest of challenges. It couldn't come at worse time though. My sister is getting married and I am single again. God is funny is how he works in my life. I have come to expect that. For example, when dating Chris, we were long distance and the only way we could see each other was to fly. Of course, the Lord provided free tickets, so I had no excuse for not being able to go. I had to face my traumatic fear of flying. I hated it. . The funny thing is, the Lord knew that Chris was only reason I would ever face my fear so often, but it ended up preparing me to feel more comfortable about flying to Rwanda, Africa. The Lord is funny the way he works and it always seems to come full circle. Challenging times bring the most glory to God and he gives me my fair share of opportunities. I am truly blessed.